Week 18
I'm pretty sure that I felt the baby move this week. I was laying in bed in the morning and telling Sammy that I wished I could feel the baby move. I started poking around my stomach where it's hard, then felt this little flick three times. I wasn't sure if it was my stomach digesting or what so I waited, then felt it one more time. I'd never felt anything like it, so I'm pretty sure it was the baby. I kept poking my belly every day after that trying to make it happen again, but there was nothing.
Sammy and I exchanged these messages.
We had this weird moment at church where a missionary was talking about her friends conversion story. As she talked, Sammy and I kept looking at each other because this person sounded familiar to someone we both interact with on Twitter. I broke my rule of not getting on the internet during church and messaged her to ask if she knew this missionary. Turns out she did! It's such a small world sometimes.
Star Wars Day happened and I brought out all of my gear. I was the only one dressed up at work. I miss working with other Star Wars fans.
I tried to convince my family to buy this for the baby. My mom was not on board, but my brother was.
Sammy and I exchanged these messages.
We had this weird moment at church where a missionary was talking about her friends conversion story. As she talked, Sammy and I kept looking at each other because this person sounded familiar to someone we both interact with on Twitter. I broke my rule of not getting on the internet during church and messaged her to ask if she knew this missionary. Turns out she did! It's such a small world sometimes.
Star Wars Day happened and I brought out all of my gear. I was the only one dressed up at work. I miss working with other Star Wars fans.
I tried to convince my family to buy this for the baby. My mom was not on board, but my brother was.
I almost passed out in the shower one morning after going to the gym for just ten minutes. I felt so gross after the gym that I hopped straight into the shower. I was so hungry and tired though that combined with the hot shower, I started feeling really really weird. I turned the water cold and sat down in the tub for a moment. I was starving and knew that I needed food so I got up to get some and my edges started going black and I couldn't hear. I just sat down on the middle of the floor with my head between my knees and called Sammy. I was barely able to speak and explain what was happening to him. I just pictured him having to come home to me unconscious and calling the paramedics while I was still naked.
After a few minutes passed I was finally able to get up and grab some water and yogurt and tried to get those down. I felt absolutely terrible and really weak. I was scared and home alone. I tried calling my parents and they didn't answer right away, and that's when I truly felt alone. Thankfully my mom called me right back and came over with an egg McMuffin which was exactly what I needed. I stayed with my family and rested all day to prepare for the talent show I was playing with them that night, along with going to a wedding reception.
I was pretty nervous for the talent show since I haven't drummed in years and it's been harder to do it while pregnant. I really wanted to nail a drum fill at the end of the song, but during practices I was only hitting it 50% of the time. It's not the end of the world, but it's one of the only cool things I can do with the drums so I wanted to get it just right. Before the show I was feeling so nervous and was so scared that I was going to pass out on the stage especially since I'd almost passed out that morning. I hoped that once I got out there and started the song, I'd feel better. That's how it always was when playing in public before. But this time, when I started the song I still didn't feel better and felt kind of panicky. I was taking really deep breaths while playing, trying to calm down.
One of the coolest parts of this show was that I got to play with my family. I love that we all play rock and roll, and the times when we can all do it together are so rare, so this was special.
Then it came time for the drum fill and I nailed it. I was so stoked and I looked over at Sammy who was cheering from the side. We finished up the song and I did a little solo and threw my sticks. One of them ended up flying off the stage. That was probably the last time I'll play the drums, at least while pregnant, so I'm glad it went well.
Sammy decided that we needed a date night on Monday and so he said he'd take me to Costa Vida for dinner since they have flan, and that we could go to Target and look at whatever I wanted. We originally went there wanting to find a bookshelf, a lamp, and a body pillow. But we got distracted by the dollar section, and then went to look at baby clothes. We found the graphic tees, and ended up buying this shirt for our baby. They won't be able to wear it for a year, but that's alright. Our first official purchase for the baby!
Week 19
After my first experience almost passing out in the shower, I've been very conscious of eating right before, not getting the water too hot, and so on, but every time I wash my hair I still get really tired and don't feel well. I had some of the worst allergies I've ever had this week and ended up going home early because I looked like Rudolf. I then got a bloody nose that night, something I've never had before which freaked me out. My sister's college graduation was the next day and I was super stressed about going to that. The past two weeks really made me feel out of control of my body, not sure what new things it was going to do next.
The morning of my sister's graduation I felt good so I decided to go. I'm so glad that I did. Both of my grandmas were in town, along with an aunt and cousins. It was so great to see them all and spend the day with them. I saw my sister recognized for all the hard work she's done over the past four years. Even when it's not my own graduation, I always feel emotional when I hear Pomp and Circumstance.
My sister's school is a sister university to the one Sammy and I went to, so a lot of the opening speeches were the same that we heard at ours. My brother in law and my brother are both going to those schools, and Sammy is looking into going to the other connected university for law school, so by the time everyone finishes I should have those speeches memorized, having heard them six times.
What would have been a valedictorian speech was given by a guy who just rambled about making lots of mistakes, then about the art of writing and revision, and it was all over the place. Both my brother and I told people at different times that what he really needed to revise was his speech.
At my graduation and Sammy's they were very vocal that you should not leave early and stay until the end. They did not say that at her's, and people would walk across the stage and then leave immediately. None of us had cell phone service so it was a fun game of watching my sister, wondering if she wanted to stay for the whole thing or not. She walked and went back to her chair, so we all waited. Then out of nowhere she just got up and left. We all tried to text her and see what was happening, but no one's messages went through. It was then a mess of trying to find her. At one point, my dad walked off to get her and my mom and grandma went in a different direction. I was with my brother and said we should move with them but he said no, we needed to stay in the last place my dad saw us so he didn't lose us. My brother is 6'4", so I said we could move and my dad would easily be able to see him. He said that it might be hard for my dad to see since he's so short. My dad is 6'. My brother is savage.
The day before Mother's Day I told Sammy that he needed to take me shopping because it was supposed to rain the whole next week and none of my pants fit. I thought that shopping in the maternity store would be simple and easy, but it was not. It was overwhelming and I almost started crying in the dressing room because none of the pants fit nicely. I was panicking, if the maternity pants didn't fit me, what was I going to do? Sammy was super sweet and supportive the whole time, running and finding me different sizes and styles. At the last moment I tried on a pair of the jeggings they had, and not only did they fit, but they were some of the most comfortable pants I've ever worn. Sammy also found me this cute top with bell sleeves that I love to death. It's my new favorite shirt.
The nice thing about the maternity store was that they had lots of chairs, cookies, a water fountain, and bathroom in the store. They also gave me a bag of free samples, so I now have a baby bottle.
We also went to Target and Bath and Body Works. I thought that with my super nose, I would have an easy time picking out lotions, but it was the exact opposite. I'm not sure what it was, but I couldn't smell anything. Nothing! I ended up having Sammy sniff them and describe them, and chose that way.
I had an incident that day dressed up in my new clothes, where someone went to give me a hug and started rubbing my belly vigorously. I was not comfortable with that, so I just walked away. That person was upset with me and stayed silent for a few hours afterward. I felt bad for offending them, but it's still my body. It was not okay to touch me like that before, and it's not okay to touch me like that now. One thing I super love about Sammy is that he always asks before touching my belly because he gets that it's weird for me to just be touched like that without any warning. Just because it is our child and I am his wife, he does not feel entitled to just touch whenever he likes. One thing I want to make sure my kid understands is that they don't have to be touched in any way they do not want, and they should never touch another person who does not want to be touched.
Sammy and I picked up a new bookshelf since ours died during the move, and he built it for me on Saturday night. It took him awhile, but he did all of it by himself. When he went to push it against the wall though, he realized that he'd put the back of the shelf on backwards, so that the unfinished wood was facing outward. We both just shrugged because there was no way that back was coming off for us to turn it around. They books cover it up when they're pushed in though so it's all good. :)
For Mother's Day we went to church with my parents, and then to their house afterward for the tradition of Sammy, my brother, and my dad cooking for my mom. This year though, we had all of my family there as well which was fun. My dad was caught up at church so Sammy and my brother were the only two cooking and I loved hearing Sammy coach Tanner through making the pancakes and eggs. Sammy has really upped his breakfast game over the years and everything was perfect.
I found this silly picture on Instagram, and my siblings and I all drew ourselves as potatoes.
My dad asked me if I had a display at the library for the Royal Wedding and to my horror I didn't. I finally had a use for the fake wedding invitation I made myself a few months ago, and I got right on that. A lot of the books have actually checked out. It's the little things that make me happy.
The night before we found out the baby's gender, I had a craving for Lucky Charms. I hadn't felt the baby move in a few days, so I was really surprised when I started feeling it move five minutes later, a lot. Sammy was studying on the opposite couch and I lifted up my shirt a little to look at my belly. We were both looking at the same moment when we saw something jab, moving my skin. Sammy screamed a little and it was the craziest thing. I've seen so many videos of people's belly's moving, but I had no idea that we'd be able to see it this soon. It was a great moment and made us even more excited for our ultrasound the next day.
I was pretty nervous for the talent show since I haven't drummed in years and it's been harder to do it while pregnant. I really wanted to nail a drum fill at the end of the song, but during practices I was only hitting it 50% of the time. It's not the end of the world, but it's one of the only cool things I can do with the drums so I wanted to get it just right. Before the show I was feeling so nervous and was so scared that I was going to pass out on the stage especially since I'd almost passed out that morning. I hoped that once I got out there and started the song, I'd feel better. That's how it always was when playing in public before. But this time, when I started the song I still didn't feel better and felt kind of panicky. I was taking really deep breaths while playing, trying to calm down.
One of the coolest parts of this show was that I got to play with my family. I love that we all play rock and roll, and the times when we can all do it together are so rare, so this was special.
Then it came time for the drum fill and I nailed it. I was so stoked and I looked over at Sammy who was cheering from the side. We finished up the song and I did a little solo and threw my sticks. One of them ended up flying off the stage. That was probably the last time I'll play the drums, at least while pregnant, so I'm glad it went well.
Sammy decided that we needed a date night on Monday and so he said he'd take me to Costa Vida for dinner since they have flan, and that we could go to Target and look at whatever I wanted. We originally went there wanting to find a bookshelf, a lamp, and a body pillow. But we got distracted by the dollar section, and then went to look at baby clothes. We found the graphic tees, and ended up buying this shirt for our baby. They won't be able to wear it for a year, but that's alright. Our first official purchase for the baby!
Week 19
After my first experience almost passing out in the shower, I've been very conscious of eating right before, not getting the water too hot, and so on, but every time I wash my hair I still get really tired and don't feel well. I had some of the worst allergies I've ever had this week and ended up going home early because I looked like Rudolf. I then got a bloody nose that night, something I've never had before which freaked me out. My sister's college graduation was the next day and I was super stressed about going to that. The past two weeks really made me feel out of control of my body, not sure what new things it was going to do next.
The morning of my sister's graduation I felt good so I decided to go. I'm so glad that I did. Both of my grandmas were in town, along with an aunt and cousins. It was so great to see them all and spend the day with them. I saw my sister recognized for all the hard work she's done over the past four years. Even when it's not my own graduation, I always feel emotional when I hear Pomp and Circumstance.
My sister's school is a sister university to the one Sammy and I went to, so a lot of the opening speeches were the same that we heard at ours. My brother in law and my brother are both going to those schools, and Sammy is looking into going to the other connected university for law school, so by the time everyone finishes I should have those speeches memorized, having heard them six times.
What would have been a valedictorian speech was given by a guy who just rambled about making lots of mistakes, then about the art of writing and revision, and it was all over the place. Both my brother and I told people at different times that what he really needed to revise was his speech.
At my graduation and Sammy's they were very vocal that you should not leave early and stay until the end. They did not say that at her's, and people would walk across the stage and then leave immediately. None of us had cell phone service so it was a fun game of watching my sister, wondering if she wanted to stay for the whole thing or not. She walked and went back to her chair, so we all waited. Then out of nowhere she just got up and left. We all tried to text her and see what was happening, but no one's messages went through. It was then a mess of trying to find her. At one point, my dad walked off to get her and my mom and grandma went in a different direction. I was with my brother and said we should move with them but he said no, we needed to stay in the last place my dad saw us so he didn't lose us. My brother is 6'4", so I said we could move and my dad would easily be able to see him. He said that it might be hard for my dad to see since he's so short. My dad is 6'. My brother is savage.
The day before Mother's Day I told Sammy that he needed to take me shopping because it was supposed to rain the whole next week and none of my pants fit. I thought that shopping in the maternity store would be simple and easy, but it was not. It was overwhelming and I almost started crying in the dressing room because none of the pants fit nicely. I was panicking, if the maternity pants didn't fit me, what was I going to do? Sammy was super sweet and supportive the whole time, running and finding me different sizes and styles. At the last moment I tried on a pair of the jeggings they had, and not only did they fit, but they were some of the most comfortable pants I've ever worn. Sammy also found me this cute top with bell sleeves that I love to death. It's my new favorite shirt.
The nice thing about the maternity store was that they had lots of chairs, cookies, a water fountain, and bathroom in the store. They also gave me a bag of free samples, so I now have a baby bottle.
We also went to Target and Bath and Body Works. I thought that with my super nose, I would have an easy time picking out lotions, but it was the exact opposite. I'm not sure what it was, but I couldn't smell anything. Nothing! I ended up having Sammy sniff them and describe them, and chose that way.
I had an incident that day dressed up in my new clothes, where someone went to give me a hug and started rubbing my belly vigorously. I was not comfortable with that, so I just walked away. That person was upset with me and stayed silent for a few hours afterward. I felt bad for offending them, but it's still my body. It was not okay to touch me like that before, and it's not okay to touch me like that now. One thing I super love about Sammy is that he always asks before touching my belly because he gets that it's weird for me to just be touched like that without any warning. Just because it is our child and I am his wife, he does not feel entitled to just touch whenever he likes. One thing I want to make sure my kid understands is that they don't have to be touched in any way they do not want, and they should never touch another person who does not want to be touched.
Sammy and I picked up a new bookshelf since ours died during the move, and he built it for me on Saturday night. It took him awhile, but he did all of it by himself. When he went to push it against the wall though, he realized that he'd put the back of the shelf on backwards, so that the unfinished wood was facing outward. We both just shrugged because there was no way that back was coming off for us to turn it around. They books cover it up when they're pushed in though so it's all good. :)
For Mother's Day we went to church with my parents, and then to their house afterward for the tradition of Sammy, my brother, and my dad cooking for my mom. This year though, we had all of my family there as well which was fun. My dad was caught up at church so Sammy and my brother were the only two cooking and I loved hearing Sammy coach Tanner through making the pancakes and eggs. Sammy has really upped his breakfast game over the years and everything was perfect.
I found this silly picture on Instagram, and my siblings and I all drew ourselves as potatoes.
My dad asked me if I had a display at the library for the Royal Wedding and to my horror I didn't. I finally had a use for the fake wedding invitation I made myself a few months ago, and I got right on that. A lot of the books have actually checked out. It's the little things that make me happy.
The night before we found out the baby's gender, I had a craving for Lucky Charms. I hadn't felt the baby move in a few days, so I was really surprised when I started feeling it move five minutes later, a lot. Sammy was studying on the opposite couch and I lifted up my shirt a little to look at my belly. We were both looking at the same moment when we saw something jab, moving my skin. Sammy screamed a little and it was the craziest thing. I've seen so many videos of people's belly's moving, but I had no idea that we'd be able to see it this soon. It was a great moment and made us even more excited for our ultrasound the next day.
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