Crazy Socks & Writer's Block

Sorry I've been gone. It's been a pretty awesome week filled with awesomeness. It was also muchly needed. I feel so much more reenergized and ready to tackle school/life again. Seeing all the people and friends who love me and care was amazing, especially all the friends I've made in the last month. I'm not even physically here all the time, yet they all care about me so much and were willing to give up a night of homework to watch my favorite movie with me, even when that movie is We Bought A Zoo. It still surprises me how different the people here are. I was expecting me to be the only one who enjoyed the movie, and everyone else to tease me about it. But they all got into the movie as well and we were all almost crying when Matt Damon cries. See, since he's also Jason Bourne, its a very big deal when that man sheds tears. When Matt Damon cries, everybody cries. The bestby spent the whole day with me which was amazing. He got to have a taste of dorm life, and se...

Tomorrow's my birthday. I'm pretty excited because I'll get to be an odd number again! I much rather prefer being an odd number than an even. Man, 18 you were jam packed with tons of crazy things. A ton. Now I get to start all over, and hopefully cram even more awesome experiences into a year. I'm dreading being 20 by the way. Eww. It just sounds gross. Today was a pretty funny day. I just discovered moments ago that I totally left my pajamas and underwear on the bathroom floor next to my lotion and deoderant. They were all standing up quite nicely. I have no idea how I got so distracted this morning that I left them there. Joice said she thought I'd been kidnapped until she saw the bottles standing up so nicely. I absolutely love this jacket. Best. Purchase. Ever. Rocking the floral! I may or may not have given this boy the best pep talk in the history of pep talks. These are some of the quotes that came out of this talk. Feel free to quote me later. ...

Hey Utah bloggers. Pay attention! So I'm out in Utah with family and it's so nice being out here and seeing everyone. So glad I was able to come. Yesterday's drive was pretty good, it went much faster when I was able to sit in the back and sleep and not be co-pilot like our last trip haha! We went to Fredricho's and Charlie's today and I am so satisfied. I may or may not have had a very tiny breakfast to save room. But the funnest part so far? Kitten hunting! My cousin is a beast at this. My grandma has a few wild cats running around who have a lot of friends from the male persuasion so there are a ton of kittens running around everywhere. They're so stinking cute! Anyways, this morning my little cousin ran in and let me hold this little guy. He was shaking and one of his eyes was all watery but it made me so happy! At dinner time, I looked outside and there were about twelve kittens out there playing. I wanted to hold one so bad! My favorite was this s...

I'm well aware that tomorrow is indeed Thursday. But for this week, it's my Friday. Tomorrow I'm waking up, going to class, then leaving for Utah for a funeral. It's not the happiest of circumstances, but a much needed relief to all involved. My uncle is no longer in pain and I know he's in a better place. I didn't know him that well which is sad, but I'll get to know him better one day. I'm excited to get out of here for a few days, away from work, school, and stress and just spend time with family celebrating life and being together. I even got almost all my homework done, so I can just relax. Plus, my birthday is coming up. Every year I want to go to my favorite pizza place Fredricho's for dinner. Well if there's time maybe my dream will come true this weekend. If it doesn't that's ok. We'll just have to go to a mexican restraunt because they never have mexican food here! I. Need. My. Mexican. Food. And not the fake taco bell stu...

I wear clothes. Yep! It's a true statement! But ever since I've gotten down here, I've been trying to make more of an effort to not live in my baggy tshirts. And it's been really fun! I'm nowhere near fashion blogger status, and I have to take all these pictures myself because all my roommates are gone by the time I put clothes on. But yeah! I thought I had some pretty cute outfits this week! Sorry they're all sideways. I'm too lazy to flip them. It rained the first time this day! I was so warm with my scarf, and my umbrella's my new best friend! I can't believe I've never used one until this week. I also was one of the only cashiers in the bookstore that day, which was really fun! I was busy the whole time and the shift went really fast! When my lead clocked me out he was shocked that I'd done 300 transactions. I felt pretty awesome. And my friends visited me, they kept me entertained. On Thursday, we got Mexican food. They...

It's been brought to my attention that lately I've been little miss negativity. This is something I am not very happy about. Not happy about at all. Yet it's true. And it's time for that to change. It's going to take some time, that's for sure. I'm going to have to work on it day by day, little by little. Life is short. I need to take control of how I feel and see things. Need to stop looking back at the past, at all the little bad things. It's seemed like lately the bad things are all I remember. But then I realized that it's easier to remember the bad things because they are far outnumbered by good. So when a bad thing or annoyance happens, it's easier to remember. That's going to change. I'm honestly a little embarrassed that I've gotten to the point I have, but I'm working on it. I'm so glad that I have this blog. It was fun to look back at all the things that have happened in a year. Oh! I forgot to celebrate my blog...

I'm trying to hold it in. Trying to smile besides it all. Have some laughs. But it's there. At the back of my mind. I can't focus. I can't think. It's so, frustrating. Frustrating isn't the right word. I don't know what the right word would be. I keep getting so upset with myself. It's not my decision. It's not my choice. It's not going to affect me the most. But it is going to have an affect on my life. A great one. One that I've wanted and been praying and wishing for. It's so close I can feel it, which makes it all the more aggravating. The waiting. I keep having dreams where I'm confronted and no matter what I say, no matter how loud I yell, it doesn't matter. They don't care. They won't listen. That's one of my fears. Not having a voice at all. I'd scream in my pillow but I've got to play it cool. They don't get it. Oh, and why'd my english teacher decide to tell me now, 5 years later that ...

Ok, go one Friday forward from last friday night, and you'll have today. Which was a great day! Thank goodness! I had UHL all day. It's getting better. Sort of. Some things my professor said made me question what I'm doing here again. I want to write. That's what I've always wanted to do. That's where my passion is. We discussed a lot about how everyone feels such a push to go to college, but only about 30% of the people who go actually end up getting a degree. A few decades ago, that was a much different story. Now, a bachelor's degree is worth basically nothing. Everyone gets those, even if they don't actually need it for their job. So why get into tons of debt if you already know your passion and can learn it another way. That's what we discussed today. I'm not going to go drop out tomorrow or anything, just something to think about. The worst part of UHL today was the fact that our guest speaker wasn't able to finish her presentation ...

Hey! It's almost been three weeks! Woo! I'm getting the hang of this! The homework is starting to pick up though, but luckily my work hours are going down so I'm getting the hang of it. I love all my new college friends! They're so fun :) I miss Kelsey though and can't wait to see her at the Imagine Dragons concert! I also miss some of my high school teachers, but there's no way I would ever want to go back to high school. Eww! College rocks! I love the city animals :) The pigeons are so cute! I still get to see my bestby most days, which is always fun!  Today we've been dating for 20 months! So exciting :) I won't bore you with how much I love this guy though ;)  It's weird going back and forth from the city and then home. I have two homes now, which is interesting to say the least. I love being able to just sit around the city somewhere and think. I love my family sooo much! Now we make the most of the time we spend together, which...

You know those days, when you're at church and its like everything they say is meant for you? Today I got to watch the bestby have one of those. It was a cool experience. I got my first calling in the branch today. Wasn't too excited about it honestly. Put me in a stressed mood. It's on the fellowshipping committee. I don't really know how this is all going to work out, especially since I only live in the branch boundaries half of Saturday and Sunday. But I know I'm supposed to have this calling and it'll work out. And the sooner I get over my negative attitude about it, the sooner they'll release me. ;) Britton and the bestby watched me get set apart. My two best friends! And yes, yes you can have more than one at a time. That annoying moment when you realize that you still have a grudge against someone and you kinda sorta need to get over yourself and forgive. Again. Patience. When will I ever learn you? When? Is asking you when I will learn you im...