Weeks 22-23

Week 22

So, I have a thing about moths. I hate them. A lot. And when I was a kid my sister and I would go through deep manuevers to go wake our poor mom up to come and kill them, but they'd always disappear, only to come back out the second she left. Since I live on my own, whenever there's a moth either Sammy or I have to kill it. Sammy has tried, but has need successfully killed a moth, having not had to witness years of how it's done. My favorite memory is when we were very first married and there was a moth, and at one point he started spraying it with his cologne to 'try and suffocate it with the fumes like bug spray' as he put it. Every time I would end up taking the swatter from him and then killing those moths in a rage. 

We had one in our apartment this week sitting in Sammy's shoes, who then went to the ceiling. The ceilings are pretty high, and I was exhausted after work. Sammy grabbed our Swiffer and then smashed the moth in one try. I was so proud of him for killing his first moth. 

My feet swelled up for the first time. I was driving home from work and it was super hot. As I kept driving, I noticed my feet feeling super tingly. (I would say numb but after a call with a nurse on a hotline when I thought I was possibly having a stroke but instead just a new kind of panic attack, you cannot call something numb if there is at least a pins and needles feeling.) I figured it had to do with being in the car for so long and just kept going home. When I got there Sammy started laughing because my feet had swollen over my flats and just looked super weird. It has begun. Let's hope it doesn't get too bad this summer. 

I accidentally saw a Star Wars spoiler...We still haven't seen the movie haha!

My brother came over and helped me hang up most of my wall art, something I've been putting off. It was great having him help because he has an artistic eye so we both agreed on whether something looked good or not. He also helped me fix the fire alarm which was too high for me to reach. 

I was feeling really overwhelmed by a lot of little things this week, so Sammy took me to Panera and told me to just tell him everything. He's such a great listener and so patient with me and I'm so lucky to have him. 

We are currently at war with our apartment complex over our mailbox. We haven't received any mail yet because every time the mailman comes, our box is open. The apartment claims to fix it, but then the next day we still don't have any mail and the box is open again. They've 'fixed' it three times, and now implied that maybe we just don't know how to lock it. We are now recording every time we go to get our mail, and I can't wait to show them it all. But really, I'd just like to have my mail if we're being honest. 

I was told that I could stay at my job part tme after the baby was born, which was the perfect solution I've been stressing and praying about for weeks.**

Sammy and I went on a date to Buffalo Wild Wings and we had an appetizer special for the both of us and it was so amazing we can't stop thinking about it. Our total was $16.25 when all was said and done. Pretty exciting. 

I was sitting next to Sammy on the couch and started singing the Little Mermaid. He asked if I could please sing any other Disney songs because I always sing that one and there are so many out there. So I sang Let it Go ;) He then asked for anything but that. When I started singing Moana, the baby started kicking me and moving around. I started playing him the soundtrack and he seemed to like it, especially 'How Far I'll Go.' It was written by Lin Manuel Miranda, so my kid has good taste. 

I had an, interesting, experience at church. I went to the bathroom before hand and when I walked in, there was this woman standing in the doorway talking with another woman in a stall. They were talking about death while the woman pooped. I myself do not like to talk to anyone when going through that experience, especially to talk about death. The smell made me a bit queasy so I tried to get out of there as fast as I could and I went into the chapel where they did not have the AC on. It was so hot that halfway through I was getting really lightheaded and felt like I couldn't breathe, so I walked out. With the earlier queasiness and heat in the building, I just couldn't do it and we ended up going home early.

Someone tried to touch my belly for the first time at work. It was an older man who I was helping on the copier. He said, "I've been coming here awhile, I wanted to congratulate you on your blessed child." Then he reached out to touch me. I took a step backwards and luckily he got the hint and didn't press it past that.

I can feel my ribs starting to expand during the day and it's the weirdest sensation. I've been trying a lot of yoga moves to make things a little more comfortable and that's helped so far. I know it's only going to get worse as the baby gets bigger though.

When I'm driving home from work, I can feel him squirming around in there every evening. I don't know if it's the heat in the car, because I'm so tired, or what but whenever I'm driving he moves around so much, it feels like he's rolling in circles or something. It makes him feel even more real, and I can't wait to hold him. 

Week 23 

My app informed me that my baby is the size of a fruit pie. What does that even mean? Pies can come in so many different shapes and sizes. And why only a fruit pie?

I was having a rough day, and Sammy and I were talking about Del Taco and how we've never tried it. I suggested we should try it because I thought that there was a location fairly close to our house. When we actually looked at the maps though, they were pretty far. I said that we could just go a different night on the weekend, and that was that. When I came home that night though, Sammy had it waiting for me. He's so sweet surprising me. Surprises are something that I love and he's been doing them a lot more.

The food was pretty good by the way, and I'm glad I tried it because I spent at least an hour on their menu trying to pick what I wanted, and my coworkers were getting annoyed with me for always having food up on the screen. What can I say, I take eating very seriously now.

Amanda came and we had lunch together. It was so great to see her and catch up on everything. I've missed talking with her and hanging out everyday at work so much.

**After writing out an entire blog post about how God answers our prayers, talking in great detail about the journey of me trying to decide where to work after the baby was born, then being told that I could work part time at my current job, I was informed that I could NOT work part time after all. I literally went onto my blog after I found out and took down that post before letting Sammy know. I was pretty shocked and confused, but I don't feel super panicked about it. I'm not mad at God and it hasn't shaken my faith at all; now I know that I'm not supposed to stay where I am. I guess I'll just keep trucking along until I figure out what that means.

Sammy and I celebrated our four year wedding anniversary. On the day of he had flowers delivered to me at work, something that he's never done before. (I may or may not have told him earlier that the baby thought he should send me flowers. ;) I've learned that if you really want something, you should just be direct about it instead of hoping that it will happen and then being disappointed and filled with resentment.)

Since we both had to work the day of, we waited until the weekend to celebrate. We tried to go to the pool and were covered in sunscreen, when we found out it was closed. Instead we sat on the sidewalk across from the pool to get a little sun. We went out to Old Spaghetti Factory for dinner and it was amazing as always. We were having such a good time at dinner, that we forgot to take a picture. So we took one in the car afterwards.
 

We finally went to Target and started our baby registry. We had no idea what we were doing and only ended up scanning a few things, and I had to keep taking breaks to sit down. Sammy had a lot of fun test driving all of the strollers. I've been second guessing every decision we've made because we'll pick something, then see that the reviews are all terrible, then have to start all over again. I also hope that people don't think we're crazy for registering for some more expensive items or expecting them to get them; we get a discount for anything that's on the registry that we can use ourselves when shopping later.
 

Sammy was asked to give a talk on what the gospel has taught him about being a father. I was getting stressed for him because the speaker before him was rambling a little and all over the place, leaving Sammy with less than ten minutes, when he'd prepared to speak for fifteen. He slashed his talk in half on the fly and it was still a great talk. So many people were touched by his sweet words, and I guess a member of the Stake Presidency kept saying, 'wow' to the bishop. Sammy's such a great speaker and I know that skill will take him far.

23 week bump

Sammy took the LSAT for the first time. He's been studying for that moment for months, so I was nervous for him. He's already scheduled to take it again in September, so this was more of a trial run to get a feel for test day. It was a little nerve wracking to not be able to contact him for over five hours. I occupied myself most of the day, but then started googling furiously just how long the test should take because I hadn't heard from him in so long. My head was going to all the worst case scenarios, what if he'd passed out during the test and they had to take him to the hospital and he had no way to contact me?! But then he finally let me know the test was over. He was pretty brain fried when I saw him that night.