Little Bit o Writing- Poetry Edition

I've finally decided to share one of my poems on here. Please be nice haha!

Air

Red fluorescent light

Blinks 1:47 mocking me

Why am I awake?

Someone switched the air

With lead, it's impossible

To breathe but I hear

Voices in the hall

Laughing, drunken delights

While I lay in terror

Stomach surging with

Threats to spew, please not again

I beg. Fear sets in

Running my hand through

Knotted hair, damp with fresh sweat

Why am I burning?

And why do my teeth

Chatter incessantly, knocking

My racing mind around?

Memories surface

Mom sitting with me by night

“Panic attack,” she whispers

Expert fingers drawing

Letters down my spine

Until shaking turns to sleep

I try to remember

Those things she said to do if

This happened again

“Just say it's ok.”

“It's all in your head, it's ok.”

“Say it out loud, ok?”

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok

I open my mouth

To say the magic words but

There's no air to speak

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