As I said yesterday I've been feeling a lot of stress fear and anxiety. This morning I was down on my knees, begging for some reassurance of some kind. And I felt nothing. Absolutely nothing. I've experienced this before and know that I will eventually get an answer, it's just not on my timeframe and I need to be patient. But today, I didn't want to wait, I felt I needed an answer now. Pronto. As I got up i felt discouraged. Not two minutes later my phone buzzed in my pocket. It was a text from my grandma, saying the exact words I needed to hear in that very moment. As I read through them, I felt peace and gratitude. I've always heard those stories about Heavenly Father answering our prayers through others, and that's exactly what he did here. I'm so grateful for a Heavenly Father who listens, and answers my prayers in ways just perfect for me. I'm also really grateful that blogger was being dumb because otherwise I wouldn't have seen my grandmas words when I needed them. He listens!
Being in a class dedicated to the idea of migration has really kept the idea of racism on the brain. In elementary school, the idea of racism was so defined to me, thinking people are better than others based solely on the color of their skin. It wasn't until middle school after reading many books that I realized racism wasn't jut as issue of black versus white, rather it applies to all cultures. In high school I was actually shocked to here racist statements from people I loved. All the sudden this issue became personal somewhat. (My favorite statement was from a little girl who said, it should be illegal for Mexicans to have babies. I guess I can't have kids then.) But it wasn't until last week when we did an activity in my public health class that I realized that I myself was being racist as well. Now, this is something I am not proud of. I'm very embarrassed actually and that activity was humbling. Why am I writing about this? Because, it's som...
Isn't it amazing how the man upstairs works? I love the peace and comfort I get from knowing that.
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