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Check Yo Self

I've started doing this new thing I like to call Check Yo Self. It's no secret that I'm filled with so many feelings. I've been reading about being a highly sensitive person, and that seems to fit me SO well. I often get so overwhelmed with all these different emotions and feelings, that I feel like I need to cry all. the. time. Which is just not reasonable. You can't always be crying. And even though I feel like I should be crying and I know that it'll be a relief afterwards, I struggle to cry. 

Anyways. 

I've developed a new strategy for dealing with these emotions. Because half the time I don't even know what I'm feeling upset or so strongly about. Once I can identify that though, I feel better. This method really helps me. 
I take a piece of paper and start writing all the thoughts in my head on it in cursive, because my cursive is so sloppy. I just write whatever pops into my head. When I fill one side of the paper, I rotate it 90 degrees and move onto the next side. I keep doing that until my mind stops spinning and I've gotten everything out. It always surprises me the things that come out while doing this exercise. Things I hadn't even realized were bothering me come up! 

After I've written on one side everything that's bothering me, I flip it over to the other side and write truths. For example, I was feeling sad for two days in a row and was scared that I was spiraling down into a depression. I wrote that on the first side of the paper. When I flipped it over, I wrote everyone has days where they feel sad. That's completely normal and okay. 

I do this until I've resolved everything. I always feel refreshed afterwards and like I can actually take on the world. I told my co worker about this as well after a particularly frustrating day and she loved it. Checking my self is another way that I'm trying to cope with getting off my medicine, and just with life in general. 

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